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I FRIGGIN' LOVE DENVER!!!!

I'm here for a visit, and my visit is almost over. :( However, I've had such clearity and fun its definitely been a great trip. Sorry Nate, for not being able to call you. I had a small amount of people that I had to see as frequent as possible while in Denver. I would've LOVED to see you, but alas, there was no time. :( Maybe next time.

Anyway, so I've gotten to see Bill, and Jenni, and Lydia, and of course my family. I've gone to two different churches in the same weekend, and both were great and refreshing. Its truly been a great vacation. I still need a lot of prayer, but I feel a lot more confident in hearing God's voice because I've been more attentive and I think I'm finally understanding some things about our relationship that could totally change my life. But.,. I do still sorta feel stuck, so this could take some time. Like I said, PRAYER.

Sorry that this is short, but I have some other things that need my attention, so I shall post as able.

SMU ;)

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my my my, tis been a while since I've last said hello. The sad thing is that there isn't much of a change since then. It seem like everyone's life is moving along just lovely like, all in a hustle and bustle, adventure here, new friends there.....except me.

You know I only have one friend of my own here in Worland? One real friend, that I can go hang out with and be myself around. Her name is Bree. She's my age, have a 19 month old girl, Elioniah, and a live-in boyfriend and baby's father, Dan. She's way way cool. She kinda reminds me of Squid, it's like a little piece of her away from her. :'( Sadness of missing my sudzeney. But Bree is really sweet, and a christian, and like I said, the only friend I have.

Of course theres John, but honestly we've been having problems. Mostly me having them with John. Keeping from the details, I just don't know if I should stay, which means that I would go back home. I miss my family and friends, I miss Denver, I miss Starbucks....

But I'm really afraid. I'm afraid that I'll just be giving up, and giving in, just like I always do, and that I'll be running away from something that could be so great and that might only need patience. Or, going back to Denver could really be the Do-over that I needed to begin with. I'm really confused, and if it weren't for Bree's friendship here, I'd be a lot more lonely then I already feel. I really care for John though, deeply. But is it real? Has my love for anyone ever really been real? I'm beginning to think not.

Help! I need somebody Help! Not just anybody Help! OH! sorry, got carried away.....

But you get the picture.

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Hello to all my xangan friends!

Here in Denver having a good time with friends and family. And I made my boyfriend come with me.  I think he's having fun...right now he's making fun of me though....stupid!

Anyway, I hope that the holidays are going good for all of you out there. I think I'm doing better now, seeing Mommy really helped quite a bit. Just getting away from work I think really helped too! That always helps though, right?

And my niece is SO big!! She's almost 2 years old now (February) ! That's so strange, even now, that I have a niece. It's crazy!

Anyway, I'm about to have my own little Christmas here with the family. I'll be the only one opening gifts though, which is kinda wierd. This is by far the oddest Christmas I've had so far. The first Christmas I've had that's not with the family, or normal for me. But hey, I get all the gifts right now so I should just have fun and pretend its like an extra birthday! Yay for me!!

Well I'm going to eat some dinner, so I'll write again soon....maybe. If I have access to the internet again soon. Usually few and far inbetween.

Ta ta and have a fun Holiday Season!!!

Peace, Muriel;)

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Christmas is coming the goose is getting fat/ [ah!]/put a penny in the old man's hat/if you haven't got a penny, a hay-penny will do/if you haven't got a hay-penny then God bless you/God bless you!!!!!!

I'm in theChristmas spirit, couldn't you tell? So folks, what have you all been up to? I'm doing okay, I guess. I've sort of been depressed lately though, and I'm not sure why. I can't wait to go back to Denver. I can't go for Christmas, only because of work. But I'll be there from the 15th - 19th. So that's still cool. I'm stoked.

I''m a little dissapointed with myself though, because the last few paychecks have gone to things like beer and fast-food. Not good. Don't worry, I 'm still buying you all prezzies for Christmas! Yish! Don't get all excited people!But I'm hoping the New Year will be a fresh start for me, and I can get the ball rolling on some things.

Well I basically just wanted to wish you all a :

Merry Christmas

and a

Happy New Year!!

Love, Muriel

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Yes, 'tis me again. Well, things are going well here in Worland for me. I'm now living with John, which is a very nice change from my Aunt's house. McDonald's is starting to tick me off though because they are only scheduling me for nights and closes, which does not bode well with me. Uh-uh, not happening. So we're making some "changes" for me so that I can be more satisfied with my job. I think I'm gonna look for another job though, just because I don't make as much as I need. But it might be difficult to beat the pay I get at Mickey D's, just because it's actually a competitive pay rate to most places in this town. That's the really crappy thing about small towns, harder to find work. Well, good work. Anyway....

I pretty much don't have any friends though. There are a couple of girls at work that I see every now and again, and of course Jasmine. But Jazz and I don't see each other as much anymore... - boyfriends, sheesh! Such time-stealers!! But I'm okay with that, I stay out of trouble and I am having an almost stress-free life.

I still haven't done any studying for my GED though. It gets hard for me to do anything when I work late nights, don't get to sleep until 1 or 2, and then get waken up every morning because John wakes up and I can't help but do the same. I get little sleep at night, sleep a lot of the day away, and even if I don't sleep the day away, I find it hard to have motivation, ambition, or energy to get myself going. So, I'm working on that.

Today, I actually made myself get up at 8am!! Yay!! For those who know me well, you know that this is a great feat for lil' ol' me. I've gotten tons done today, too. All the laundry, and complete cleaning of the two bedrooms, and the bathroom, and part of the living room. Plus I went to a manager meeting. After this entry, I'm going to wash my car. It's very very dirty. Luckily, the dirt/sand colour is pretty much the same colour as my car, so you can't really tell! But anyway, as you can tell I'm having a good day. Life has been good. Could be better if I put my mind to it, but lethargy tends to have it's way with me. It's not very nice to me either. It's stupid.

I know this isn't very long, or very interesting for that matter, but I'm not going to put a lot of effort into this today because I'm a busy, busy woman!! So, I will chat later.

Toodles!